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That's less insulting than threatening to choke me out. That's just stupid.

[Because.

Well.

It is. ]

Really? [Wade looks around them, then gives Scott a skeptical eye.] So you're telling me you would use your not-laser eyes in the middle of an apartment complex and risk blowing a hole through how many walls and maybe killing how many people, just to stop me from choking you?

That might be something I would do. But I thought you were more careful than that. So seems to me like I've got a bit of an advantage here.

I just got out of jail. I appreciate your faith in my self-control but Logan won't 'let' his submissives spar with me because he's afraid I'll lose my shit and kill them - and he isn't wrong.

[ So yeah. He might. He wouldn't feel good about it after, but he really might. ]

[That does manage to shut Wade up for a second or two. Jesus, Scott.]

Just sleep more, alright?

And then we won't have to find out if I do try to choke you out if you'll blast my head off for it. We can leave that question happily unanswered.

[The possibility wouldn't stop him trying it, if it came down to it. Considering Wade's own lack of concern for himself.]

Yeah.

[ Meaning he'll try. That reaction didn't go unnoticed, though, so a little more tentatively, moving to sit on the edge of the bed- ]

Have you met Pyro here?

Only on the network.

[That seems like a complete non sequitur, but now he's curious.]

Why?

[ Yeah yeah, probably it is. ]

Did you talk to him enough to know if he's from the same reality as you? Or a similar one?

That's complicated. He is. But he isn't. Days of Future Past, man. Days of Future Past...

[He's probably not making sense. Or maybe he is? Which would be frankly more disturbing.]

Our world was one way. In the first, I was fighting in Vietnam with Logan and Sabertooth and then getting my mouth sewn shut. Then timey-wimey bullshit then you get me instead! Like this. Mouth open and flapping and born in the 70's rather than fighting in them. Not sure what Pyro is doing in my timeline now though. Could be he's not even born yet.

[ It doesn't make sense until it does. Scott understands time related bullshit -- probably too well.

So: ]

Close enough.

John keeps calling me a 'goody two shoes' and a suck-up who taught auto-shop. I recognize the guy he's talking about. From a time before we had students crucified on the lawn. From before we tried to remove ourselves to an island, and an attack by Trask wiped sixteen and a half million mutants out. From before we tried again and the fucking Avengers stormed a new island and a new beach and tried to kidnap my granddaughter.

From the point where I still believed 'peaceful coexistence' with humans was possible.

If you want high minded morals ... talk to Logan, it's his turn to be the good guy.

[That's a lot of shit to process. A fucked up metric ton of shit. He's no idea what to say, but finds his lips moving anyway.]

The X-men from my world... I was trying to join them. Most of you wouldn't give me the time of day. Colossus was trying. So he took me out on a mission. There was this kid. Russell. Firefist.

[Stupid fucking name.]

He was losing his shit at the orphanage where he was raised. Those mutant hating fucks were abusing him. And the police there were about to make him go back. Just slap a power restraining collar on him and send him right on back...

So, I shot one of those fucking pedophiles right in the head and the X-men let both of us get sent to the Ice Box. Do you know what happens when I get a power restraining collar put on me? I die. Slowly. Painfully.

[As much as he likes Colossus, that did really hurt. How easy it had been for him to allow that. Even if it had been what Wade wanted at the time.]

I don't want high minded morals.

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[ Scott sighs, not even aware he's done so. Not like he's shocked by any part of that story - at all - but more that he's just tired.

Also aware he's being pretty unfair to Logan - not like Logan's stupid or idealistic, just maybe found some hope again on that island. It's complicated. ]

Yeah. That kind of thing. Over and over and over again. I know exactly what's those people are thinking and why. I just... don't have the capacity anymore.

[ No win, though, because he definitely hates who he is now. And who he was. Does have a Plan if Deadpool ends up with his powers completely turned off, though. ]

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I guess I never had the capacity. [Even if wanted to have it sometimes. Wade waffles back and forth with that idea of trying, mainly whenever Colossus gave him his stupid metal doe eyes.]

If you didn't ever have the capacity to believe the world okay, why were you talking about having kids with someone?

[ Because that was you too, Wilson.]

I didn't want a family. Vanessa made me believe I could... and I was selfish enough to believe her and start to want it too, despite the world being shit.

[And now she's dead. There's the others, his new F-word. Cable, Domino, Colossus, NTW, Yukio, Russell, and hell Dophinder and Weasel too. But she'd been his dreams.]

You realized what you just said was the you believed in it, and then stopped. There's nothing wrong with that. So did I - repeatedly - but that doesn't mean you're not capable and never have been.

[ Also he's pretty sure after what happened with Cable - and his own dad - he just. He'd be such an absolute shit parent. He's not doing that to a kid. Beyond the kids he already has or had, in some other universe or otherwise. ]

I guess... [Is this like a pep talk now? He's very confused.]

Regardless. I think what I was trying to say is I'm not sure I have the capacity to maintain being a Hero™. Capitalized and trademarked. Whatever the fuck being a hero even means. I keep fooling myself into trying. Because it does sound like a nice ideal, but fuck. Sometimes people just need to be dead and being the bigger person is stupid.

[ The phrasing of that gets a (groggy) laugh out of him, because it's just so.... blunt and crude.

It's also not untrue.]

Yeah. Letting people live is sometimes really tactically unsound, and probably not even all that moral. Still a lot more comfortable than the alternative, but sometimes you've just got to do what needs to be done.

Yeah. Right? Some people just need a bullet in the brain because nothing else is ever going to work.

[Wade's not entirely sure that he's happy that Scott agrees with him. It's an odd feeling. Both vindicated and guilty. Because he knows now where Scott's coming from is over a mound of fucking trauma and loss and who the fuck knows what else. It's why Wade is the way he is too, after all.

He shifts in his seat. Thinking maybe a change in subject might be a good idea for the both of them.]

How's your thing been going? At the gym? Hopefully well, since it's been more important than sleep...

[ It's a good switch. They're contracted for reasons. Those reasons don't need to be too dragged out too far. ]

It's going all right. Do you know a guy named Brandon Carver?

Mmm, no, can't say that I do. I lost track of that show in season 5. Why do you ask? Should I get to know him?

[ The amount of 'Deadpool is bizarre' acceptance present in Scott is a lot. What is lacking his glasses make up for since he can blink in momentary confusion in privacy. ]

He's supposed to help you move the couch in.

I see.... [Wade gives him a mock suspicious look.] You trying to set me up? I'm not the one who needs to get laid more.

[Shockingly.]

The number of people who are concerned about my sex life is starting to give me a complex.

[ Not really. Well. Maybe a little. ]

I'm not trying to set you up. Sleep with him if you want, don't if you don't. He needed a way to 'pay' for the training time and that's what I was able to come up with.

Everyone's sex life here is pretty damn important. And people like you... for some reason. It's not that hard to figure out why they might be worried.

[Wade's stopped expecting anything to come up between them. And more and more isn't sure he wants it to. Cable might just be a factor too... when Wade remembers it should be anyway.]

Alright then. I'll make sure he earns it. [Wade flashes Scott a suggestive smile.]

People do not like me.

[ Does he sound crankier about that, than having been drugged? Yes. Yes he does.
Also:]

Do not make him 'earn' it. Just let him help you move the couch. If he wants sex, fine, but if you try to leverage it I will find a sword to shove up your ass blade first.

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