I don't know that I'd say forgiven, but I've stopped trying to actively join her. That's progress. [He clears his throat.] There were some gang members I'd been trying to kill. Mercenary work. I didn't manage to get them all. So they tracked me down to our apartment.

Thought I got them all. There was one last one... and that-- [His eyes fall on the spreader.] was my last weapon. I missed. And he shot her. I didn't even get to say goodbye to Vanessa. She was just gone.